devotion

for today i slightly think that how my life would be ?each day i thought am i would perform well or perhaps better for another day ...as if i guess. seldomly,i always feel lack of self esteem when i did not pursue well in my english debate during my school time. but i seems to miss them all.
oh how tremendous if time would be easier to turn back into my prior times...i wondering so much today when thinking about my exam results. are they will be precisely in flying colours or not.
i intend to continue my study after this. and i would not give up. well i know i can!!!

today i had a very soothing and relaxing moments when my room filling with lavender and ylang ylang aromatherapy. i posses so much into them and i slowly let my sleep coming into my world of dreams. feel so lonely and weary there and i almost forgot what an earth am i had dream just before???daa am i afraid?or what?some dreams represents on what we want or what things which have came before...more like into deja-vu experienced . and it was so absurd when i had a dream-or can i called and odd and nightmare like dreams dogging through my head JUST THIS afternoon????owh gosh that is so lame wierd...as before i rarely felt asleep during at noon because it make me tired when i woke up and i could stand my eyes longer during night -i mean hardly to sleep when we have fast asleep during at day time.

this devotion like memories kept thumbling in my head and i feel " oh that's only an imagination effa!!!!!" which unsettled in my past days..maybe or perhaps....so forget it...."yeahh okay i will"