as if the days that have change my sickening thoughts of life may dimmed and starts to stops...i would rather say that i really need you now... for all days i sense that i have lost something that peacefully un-threading my wound before.. why now seems everything that i feel to adore once upon a time, come to perished and seems like somebody try to take pebbles inside my shoes. my dreams its all about metaphore and unpredictable desires... like before i try to hidden down my sorrow and dreams. like no one will know and understand all those thoughts lingering my each neurons in brains.
i remember...when i starts dreaming about you my happiness that i dream would be somebody out there came to my life and threads all my wounds that wont be heal no more?? mercifully no one answer my questions....then one day i knew him but i try to deny he's existence for the first time....i deny and abandon....but someday that feel of lost came to my heart and say NO I WILL NEED HIM and I WANT HIM TO BE WITH ME FOREVER.... why should i end up this honor of love? why should i start to bleed to the things that i did not surely known? I LOVE HIM...i know he will do the same but why should i sense something LOST? looking up his face, his smile, his sweet jokes and giggles all that part of him i love..i try to fancy him for the way he are. are we match for life??? oh allah i need him most of my entire life. i study, i pray, i remember,i spend i still cannot forget for single day . waiting and waiting for him is part of my routine and happiness. can he love me now and here after???? my love will you answer my thoughts?????
